I think what is by far most interesting right now is how I have had such a steady flow of habitual actions that I am trying to end and just the slightest hint of it makes me want to dive back in. Just the slightest suggestion and that part of my brain cries out: "What am I gonna do with myself? Oh GAWD.............................!" and I "see" minor pictures in my head of things remembered, things that I used to do that bounce around in there, begging to be done again. It is true what "they" say to newly recovering addicts: "Always Have Something To Do" since I find myself wanting to go back to the familiar, time-filling visual journeys that always leave me destroyed in some way. I am nursing a minor tendinitis issue in my right foot, so I have to stay off my feet and not ride. I have been planning to ride 30-40 miles today since Friday, and the day arrives and I am not going anywhere, so I have time on my hands to do "stuff" and it has been a subtle but aggressive effort to get me to do what is familiar to me and that is just what I am not going to do.
I am cruising orchidspecies.com for information about different orchid species that I have. That is a good and wholesome pursuit....................
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