Rahter disturbing are the gathering clouds

I got a phone call from a down-and-out relative today who's just going through "it". I guess it can happen to someone even as strong as she.
I am writing to you from my favored perch on the couch, feet up, coffee and granola at the ready with pictures and images swirling in my head, all begging to be let out and put on display here. Of course not all with be memorialized in this writing but they don't know that!! How are you? I think often of you and will always hope that your wellness is a constant source of happiness and when the time comes and you lose that, as happens to most all of us, that I can be there for you and hold your hand and be of some comfort.
The 'dahlia imperialis' that I planted last July(1 year already!!) just keeps getting bigger and bigger. They do that, I know, and I am pleased at how quickly it has gone from a 1 gallon weakling to this massive and beautiful "tree" that will bloom like mad at Thanksgiving. The cool, overcast days of November really do seem more brightly colored from the pale to medium pink of the blossoms. And the way in which the winds stir then to dancing is also quite satisfying.
I am pleased to inform you also that my 'masdevallia(s) cucullata' are all making new leaves and 2 of the 3 have flower spikes.These again are new imports from Colombia that I received from Gary Meyers of colombiaorchidimport.com fame. You've never heard of him, outside of my blog? Well, go look him up and order some plants!!
We had a very strong and influential cold front sitting over us for the last week and a half and it left me wondering if the sun really was in the sky after all. I do enjoy our seasonal foggy days but if they linger heavily for too long even I, a guy from Seattle, get down in the mouth about it. While I have waxed nostalgic over the cooler displays of color during the fog season, the sunny disposition of flowers in sunshine has its great appeal as well. Nice that we get to go back and forth. I doubt that constant sunshine for weeks on end with no end in sight would be interesting.
In my last posting I wrote long about the travails of dating, expectation and the loss of my sanity to the weight of being continuously thwarted in my efforts. I guess I have recovered enough to let it all just be and that is enough. I have met many persons recently and am somewhat surprised to find myself leaning toward the notion of "it's just not a good fit" and being free to not take that personally. It becomes difficult to not be horrified by others' behaviors and see their rejectionary (seems this is not a word) actions as a value judgment on my person. But as I continue to unravel the stories that I tell about what other people's behavior means/doesn't mean, I find greater solace and peace in the results.
Overall, I believe I am creating more peace for myself in the whole of my being by understanding the question "Is It True?" when applied to my reactionary responses to others' behaviors. It helps greatly........